Most people have had a relationship in their past that is very hard to let go of. This is the one that felt as if it was meant to be.This is the one that felt like true love, yet would just not work.
Add to the list the activities the two of you did that made you feel satisfied. He moved into an apartment with two friends that were extremely bad influences. A few months later we ended up working things out and moving in together. But then came the beginning of the summer and things got horrible.Use the gift of the love, connection and good stuff in that relationship as an inspiration to find more of that kind of love in your future or current relationship.Instead of looking back at what you had, look forward to having more of that in your future.No matter what you did or did not do, your ex was, is and will continue to be a person with certain behaviors, habits, thoughts and ways of doing relationships. Forgive your ex, forgive yourself, and understand that her behavior was not your fault.Understand that all that she did, the good and the bad, comprise the totality of this person. Because you were connected to the whole person, you got to experience the good side and the bad side as well.Here was a person who could meet your needs the way you have always wanted. You are justified in your anger, yet anger is a way to stay connected to someone, albeit not a positive way. And it is more difficult still when you occasionally interact with the wonderful, caring side of him.